paper strips & test tubes

i got nothing but heartache all this while. i asked God many times, if this is not His will, then change my desires... I am weak...i need someone strong... Just when i thought i have found that strength, i get struck down again... There are so many question marks in my head...full of "???" Who will answer my questions but Him? Who will calm my heart but Him? Who will solve the mystery but Him?

One day, when i have given up totally...will i become a different person? will i become God's plan B? 2 symbolic departures... to be looked from outside the picture, to be viewed from a bird's eye above.

There's still a long road in front of me to travel...i have to battle hard against the bad voices from below, i have to numb myself from the evil forces below...

i tore up one whole realm of recycled paper into strips... i wonder, should i also hug test tubes to sleep?

普通朋友
詞曲: David Tao

等待 我隨時隨地在等待
做你感情上的依賴
我沒有任何的疑問 這是愛

我猜 你早就想要說明白
我覺得自己好失敗
從天堂掉落到深淵 多無奈

我願意改變 (what can i do?)
重新再來一遍 (just give me a chance)
我無法只是普通朋友
感情已那麼深
叫我怎麼能收手

但你說 i...
i only want to be your friend 做個朋友
我在妳心中只是 just a friend 不是情人
我感激妳對我這樣的坦白
但我給你的愛暫時收不回來
so i... 我不能只是 be your friend
i just can’t be your friend

no, no, no 我不能只是做你的朋友
不能做普通朋友